It's been a long cold lonely winter

I'm getting pretty done with this cold, wet, dark weather we are having over here... I really hope the sun will come out soon again and that it will become a little warmer so we can enjoy being outside instead of wishing we were inside again. To me, everything seems easier when the sun is shining. Then, you can always think: "At least the sun is shining!" when you have a bad day.
Now we would be more likely to say: "This is not how I want it, that could be better, and even the weather sucks!"

Understand the difference?
The sun smells so good, too. It smells like warmth and dust and grass and flowers, and something else I can't name. But I think you understand what I mean, and if not, try it this way:
Lay down in the sun, on a towel in the grass and close your eyes. Stay there for a while, feel the sun warming your skin, and then you should be able to smell the sun on your skin. It's a lovely thing for sure.

Mentioning it, I realise I always make little luck-lists: Things that make me happy and cheerful. Here are some of my little luck moments for spring:

- Butterflies! I use to draw them when I'm bored during class, and I really hope they'll show up again soon so I can take pictures of them. I love the one beneath, a classmate made it and it really has some charm. Never thought he would do photography, so it was a little surprise...

- Flowers! You probably know it by now, but I love flowers. I can't even tell why exactly. A friend of mine asked me what it is with girls and flowers, and I couldn't really answer him. It's something with colours and the softness they have in them.
Last week I found that flowers sometimes express things better than words. I was at a funeral, and the usual things were said, but it never seems really good enough to say what you feel then. And there were some lovely bouquets which, according to me, showed that better.

- Being in the garden, grass beneath my bare feet, flying birds, polished toenails in flipflops, the ability to use the swimming pool without freezing to death. Little things, but good enough for me.

- Spring fling! How could I ever forget about that. Lentekriebels, as we say it. Lovely word, it could be more than just being in love. It could be the need to run outside, to turn and turn and turn around in a circle, get dizzy and fall down in the grass. It could be the smile on your face when you see the sun coming out. And sure, it could be that special feeling when you see a certain person...

Maybe I'm in love again. It's not for sure and it certainly isn't the best idea I've ever had, but I don't really have a choice. Love hits spontaneously, and then there is not much we can do about it. Fortunately. 'Cause, if we could, the magic would be gone...

I'll see how it's going to work out for me. I'll wait, I'll dream, I'll hope, I'll never loose my trust in love.

With love,

Kirsten

Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter

Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun

And I say it's all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces

Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun

And I say it's all right

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting

Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,

And I say it's all right

It's all right

- The Beatles -

Happy birthday to me...

Yes, it is my birthday, oh yeah, aha!
Yes I'm fin'lly 17, oh yeah, aha!

Okay, just a short message because I just could not not do it.
Yes, today is my 17th birthday, and that's all I wanted to say.
And if I could, I would send all of you a cupcake... Made them yesterday with Jasmijn, and we had great fun.
Hope today will be as much fun! I really wonder what my parents and sisters are going to give me... Exciting!

Thanks to all my readers for taking the time to read my stories and leave such wonderful comments and reactions... I love you all.

With love,

Kirsten

I would like you to dance (Birthday)

Take a cha-cha-cha-chance (Birthday)

I would like you to dance (Birthday)

Dance

You say it's your birthday

Well it's my birthday too, yeah

You say it's your birthday

We're gonna have a good time

I'm glad it's your birthday

Happy birthday to you.

- The Beatles - 

I wonder when life has ever been that easy

I once read a quote in a magazine, saying: "Love should not be difficult."
It made me think about some things. I don't think that there could be any words I believe in stronger. For my opinion, love really shouldn't be hard at all. Loving people should be as easy as thinking, or staring up at a clear blue sky, as natural as breathing.

That's why I sometimes don't understand people saying it's difficult to be in a relationship. Maybe it's just me, but if it gets too hard, something seems to be wrong to me. Sure, nothing always is easy, but I think it should be easy most of the time.

As easy as feeling the sun burning on your skin... I just remember what it felt like, being in the Peruvian sun. It's like nothing else, but it was so good to do it, so natural and wonderful.

As easy as flowers! I love flowers, they are delicate and colourful and so pretty and innocent...

As easy as being proud when you've reached a top after working towards it so hard...

As easy as enjoying a splash of water in a hot sun with the ones you could never live without...

Life should be easy, but it can't always be. 

We all need to have our personal package of misery, it makes us to who we eventually are. 

We can't skip unpleasant things, but we always have a choice. 

We can choose how we want to deal with it. 

You can either start feeling miserable and sad, or you can decide to take what you have, and choose do work it out.

Never give up on it, we can all manage a lot more than we think we can.

With love,

Kirsten

Drove from Paris to the Amsterdam Hilton,

Talking in our beds for a week.

The newspaper said, "Say what you doing in bed?"

I said, "We're only trying to get us some peace".

Christ you know it ain't easy,

You know how hard it can be.

The way things are going

They're gonna crucify me.

Made a lightning trip to Vienna,

eating chocolate cake in a bag.

The newspaper said, "She's gone to his head,

They look just like two gurus in drag".

Christ you know it ain't easy,

You know how hard it can be.

The way things are going

They're gonna crucify me.

- The Beatles - 

(life should be as easy as loving their easy, cheerful and lovely songs, too)

The day after...

Yes, it was all around again. It creeps up when February starts, it becomes worse and worse every day, and CLANG!, it hits you right in the face.

Okay, I'll admit it: I'm not a great fan of Valentine's Day. I went downtown with my sister this weekend to do a little shopping, and you just see it everywhere. It's all pink and red hearts and roses and gifts and jewels and special things.
My mailbox got stuffed with offers of almost every company, offering "Special Valentine's stuff!"
Did I ask for special Valentine's stuff? Guess not.

And suddenly, it seems a problem you're single. The entire thing just reminds you that you're lonely if you don't have a date for Valentine's day.
"Any plans for Valentine's Day?"
"Uh, I think I'll just spend the evening at home, doing homework..."
And then they look at you like you're a sad, tragic person.
I got some news for you: We're not! ^^

The biggest problem is, I think, that it has gotten too commercial. It's become a way of making money and selling products.
Here you got a slight impression of my mailbox from the last weeks, so you can see it yourself.

See what I mean?
Sure, all lovely stuff, but wouldn't it be much more fun if someone bought if for you when you least expect it? And wouldn't it be slightly uncomfortable if we all bought each other iPods or diamond rings and expensive things?
Money can't buy us any love, eventually. Love should be earned by a person's being, and not by his ability to buy fancy things, right?

Happy after-Valentine's Day everyone!

(by the way, I've gotten curious... what did you do yesterday? Gotten any roses, or secret, anonymous love declarings? Let me know, let me know, let me know!

And I'm proud to tell you that I didn't get anything yesterday, so I'm the real lonely loser here, but I don't mind that.

Let's just say, that all we need is love, money can't buy me love, but I'll always get by with a little help from my friends.

With love,

Kirsten

Say you don't need no diamond rings, and I'll be satisfied
Tell me that you want the kind of things, that money just can't buy
I don't care too much for money
Money can't buy me love

Can't buy me love, everybody tells me so
Can't buy me love, no no no, no

- The Beatles - 

Bubbly, dreamy, happy, lovely

Today at school, I had a conversation about dreams. I was hanging out with some guys from my class, having fun, and someone said I looked so happy. I was happy, so he was right, but he was in some kind of sad mood and said he was in for destructing air castles and dreams.
I told him not to burst my happy-bubble. Then he started poking in the air, like he was trying to burst it, but it didn't work (good). And in fact, someone else, who was standing beside us, and we made a bigger happy bubble (even better!)
Then we started talking about dreams, and I told them my life was a dream. Living the dream, the best we can do.

Now, my idea: We should all build air castles together, share happy dreams and love and we would all be a lot happier!

Starting it now, I want to share something lovely with you:

I downloaded the movie Nowhere Boy this week, and didn't know what to expect. I knew it was about John Lennon before he became a Beatle, so it ought to be interesting.
I love the Beatles, and the reviews were pretty positive, and I'm glad to say that the movie didn't disappoint me at all. It was really interesting to see how funny and rebelish he was, and I liked the old clothing and the music in the movie.
It's mostly music from Elvis, which everyone admired then, and The Quarrymen, the first band John Lennon founded, together with Pete Shotton, Eric Griffiths, Bill Smith and Rod Davis. After their first performance, they met Paul McCartney and George Harrison, and they joined too. The rest is history. It's all visible in the movie.

And they all have such a funny accent in the movie! There is that moment when John walks into the boys' bathroom and tells his friend he is starting a rock 'n roll band, and it goes like this:
"You've bin pick'd to be in me bend!"
Just amazing.
And when his principal is mad and tells him he's going nowhere, he says: "Is nowhere for the geniuses, sir? Then I probably do belong there."
Well, in case nowhere really is for the geniuses, he absolutely belongs there, no doubt!

Even though the movie has an open ending, which I usually don't like, I really enjoyed the movie. Maybe it has something to do with the fact we all know how it ended.

Now, of course I have a new celebrity-crush on Aaron Johnson, who plays John Lennon. I want a rock 'n roll-boyfriend! ^^

( I really feel like I've been born in the wrong decade...)

No, but seriously: Go see the movie. It's super.

With love,

Kirsten

I'll look after you
Like I've never done before
I'll keep all the other
From knocking at your door

In spite of all the danger
Spite of all that may be
I'll do anything for you
Anything you want me to
If you'll be true to me

In spite of all the heartache
Thay you may cause me
I'll do anything for you
Anything you want me to
If you'll be true to me

- The Quarrymen -

Give me something I've been wanting

Do you know that feeling? It tells you you want to leave, you got to go, and that there's something big and wonderful waiting for you. You feel misunderstood, underestimated and not at your place. Even though there are so many people around you, you feel lonely.

Whenever I feel like that, the only thing I do is dreaming away. I dream of an exciting life, of people who understand me completely, of new things to discover, sights to see, sounds to hear, tastes to taste or feelings to feel. I dream of flying, of running away, right into an adventure. An adventure for everyone!

I dream of warm sand, a hot sun, salt seas, soft winds, rushing waves. I dream of soft kisses, happy feelings and sweet love. I dream of laughter, funny people, whirling parties, swaying dresses, wild dances. I dream of lovely cities, luxury shops, the smell of new shoes. I dream of written stories, read books, the smell of paper and coffee.

Then again, I remember the great times I've had with the people I love. I remember what it feels like when we're dying with laughter, like last Friday, when we were making up funny sayings. I remember what it felt like to be with the Peruvian people in Ayacucho, or to see Machu Picchu. I remember the story I'm working on, special parts of it. I remember looking my friends in the eyes and knowing that we're sharing the same thought.

The only thing which lasts me to do, is taking a bright lipstick, putting it on and smiling to myself in the mirror.

I am privileged. I am happy. I have everything I need. 

I might be different, or strange, and I don't have the most exciting life you might be able to imagine.

But who knows, it might be waiting for me...

All we need, is some faith, some fantasy, lots of love and a little hint of luck, and we could do everything we wanted to do.

With love,

Kirsten

I know the light ain't always upon me

Sometimes the night takes me inside it

Destiny, destiny...

Give me something I've been wanting

Take my feelings to the sky

Give me something I've been wondering

Give my feelings wings to fly

Destiny is to be by your side

- Sunrise Avenue -

Schooltrip Day!

Hey!

Last Friday, we went to Antwerp, Belgium on a schooltrip. I already told about it, as we actually were planning to do that before the Holidays, but it got cancelled because of all the snow.
Well, there was no snow Friday! It was freezing cold, but the sun did shine and it was pretty nice weather. It was the kind of day on which every breath you take feels like inhaling toothpaste and the air is prickly and fresh. I actually love that kind of days, it reminds me of Disneyland...
Once again, I had the greatest fun with my friends. Almost everyone in my class is nice, so it's not hard to enjoy being with them. I don't like stereotyping people, or behaving stupid towards people with no reason, so I talk with/to everyone and I can have fun with everyone I like everyone! ;D
I'm in a very happy mood right now, if you hadn't noticed yet. Everything and everyone seems lovely and nice to me right now!

So, first some impressions of what we did Friday... We did that multicultural walking, which was fine, it only was too bad it was so cold, my toes felt like they were totally frozen!

Me and Yannick ^^
Gee I feel so tiny... Why are all these boys always so tall? It's rather unfair, I always have to look up if I want to have a conversation with them...

Geert is our new Rock 'n Roll God. And I am his agent! Isn't that totally cool? It's a great thing he already knows how to do his "Rockstar-on-coke"-look, he doesn't have to practise that.

Asha, Priscilla, Dide, Fleur, Lisa, Sammy. Love Sammy's coat.

Some sweet Belgian flowers...

This could be reason enough to like the city... Diamonds are a girl's best friend!

Chilling out and warming up again at Starbucks... What would be a better place? According to some guys in my class, I have a sixth sense, which would be my "Where to find a Starbucks"-sense. It isn't even that hard, you just have to look properly and you'll find them easily.

Having fun with our Happy Meals... I hadn't had one for so many years, it was totally funny. There were Hello Kitty toys in it! My little sister liked that, too...

And well, as were here, we could do a little shopping just the same...
Of course it took more time than we thought, but two hours is just too short, so we arrived slightly late at the place we had to collect. But we had some reasons for it!

New underwear <3 cute and sweet and lacy, just like I like it... Remember what I wrote about cute underwear in my last post? It's true!

I absolute fell in shoppinglove with this Vespa-charm. I just had to buy it! I love Vespa, and I love jewels, so it's a wonderful combination, isn't it?

Butterflies! I want it to be spring soon, so I can wear it. I want it to be spring soon anyway, I'm pretty much done with the cold. Who wouldn't?

So, shortly said: We had loads of great fun!

I want more schooltrips. It's fun and it's nice to be somewhere together without being in a boring, cold classroom. 

But now, as it's getting pretty late, I guess that will be it for today. Hope you liked it ;-)

There's only one thing I couldn't let be unseen... Even Rock 'n Roll Gods need their naps now and then... 

Sweet dreams!

With love, 

Kirsten

We're gonna get it all started
Because the night is young
The light is out the door
Today was crazy but
Tonight the city's ours
Live it up, until the morning comes
Today was crazy but tonight
The city is our, our, ours.

- Big Time Rush - 

P.S.: If there are some people who need the rest of the pictures, you can find them here: 

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=10233&id=100000951168916&l=0cf971edfe

It should work if you're not on facebook, too (especially for Fleur ^^)